Wednesday, 4 July 2012

Oooops!

So here’s a word of advice for anyone taking psychoactive medication. DO NOT SKIP DOSES. EVER. I’ve always wondered what would happen if I didn’t take my medication. Well now I know.

Yesterday for some bizarre reason I forgot to take my morning meds, and didn’t realise I had forgotten until the evening. My doctor had warned me against doubling up on doses, so I just took my evening dose and figured I’d be ok.

Boy I was in for a shock. My sleep was strange and fitful, full of nightmarish dreams and dreamy nightmares. I was flying to the moon, then falling back to  earth.  I woke up more tired than when I went to bed. And then the agitation started, then the irritability, then the despondency. I was frightened...these symptoms seemed all too familiar. Eventually the agitation lessened but I was hit with terrible nausea, headache and fatigue. I curled up on the couch under a blanket cursing myself for being so stupid.

It’s only now, almost 36 hours after my last dose that I’m finally starting to feel ‘normal’ again. On one hand I’m angry that I’m so chemically dependent. But on the other hand I’m so relieved that I have medication that works so well for me.

 Needless to say I will not be forgetting my dose tonight!


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